This is charm: he waits faceless in the shadows
so that you only recognise him when he appears
and not before there is no defence against the faceless
until they have already breached the wall.
This is lust: he hides in unexpected places
and in the lines and smiles of unexpected faces
you may avoid the common markers, but lust himself has no face
and there is no defence against the faceless.
This is love: he lingers around the corners,
digging his fingers into the pretty things that clichés are made of
and if there is no defence against the faceless,
then the face of love will ruin you.
This is you: you don the
We will go when I am ready
and not before. We will go south
or west, or east or north,
or wherever my thumb stabs
on the map tucked in the front pocket
of the jacket you haven't worn for a while now.
And you will see the world as I do,
without your rainbows bouncing off
the walls of the waterfalls;
you will see the leaves in the gutters
and be sprayed by passing cars
when it hasn't rained for months.
You will leave your office shoes by the door
and wrinkle your nose at country air
fouler than the city.
I will laugh and turn the car
and bring you home.
But mark, when that day comes,
I will not stall the engine
or traipse mud
My mother paid for painting classes for me.
There were no artists in the family,
and maybe by coincidence, there were no saints.
I was only nine, and I don't know what she thought.
In later years, she'd despair: ask where she'd gone wrong,
and what hell was this she'd walked into.
Painting classes were my hell. Endless hours,
designing yellow oranges and blue hearts
for a Valentine's Day I never knew existed.
Ignorance is a bliss and a bore;
and then something to cry over, when torn away.
I stopped going when I was ten.
My mother shouted, my father didn't care,
and stayed silent behind his newspaper.
There are no artists in the
I descartes my body:
it's a verb now, because
all that exists is my mind,
and in my mind I can
rule the world, rule the language,
rule the milling peopled chaos
that doesn't exist at all.
Open the window, my self escapes,
drifting out of life and over
the steel-windowed city.
I am everywhere and everything
as the city exists here and only
in my mind; so if I descartes my body
then the only option left for me
is to be God.
So I am god, creating
lonely seas and skies in which
to lose my mind. And if
I could lose that mind,
then I do not exist at all.
I descartes myself
and the atheist God is born.
The sky has fishbones
skeletons swimming across the plain
and the city a coral reef,
dead and rusty now.
Perhaps the clouds are not bones
but cuttlefish; a thousand rows
of wispy bone and shell.
I have the attic room.
I sit in my wooden chair
and all there is
is an ocean above my head.
Which do I fear that the window seal
is not watertight, or
that if I open it, I will be the one
to slip into the sky and drown?
The first was a firework.
Exploding suns, tiny in their brilliance,
in the pit of a night sky.
The flash and bang, and if
you stood too close,
the earth rocked beneath your feet,
like God's vengeance had returned.
You could see your face:
gold and red and purple,
white and flash, and sometimes
an eyesore blue in the moment.
And a moment was all:
the suns would die again,
their brilliance snuffed out,
and the silence would sweep back in.
But the joy, the involuntary smile,
the step back only after the burn,
and the throwing of caution
to the wildest winds of all.
The second was a candle.
Lit carefully, and to burn forever.
I won't tell you of the greater things;
you'll find them out yourself.
We've all learned where love and hate are,
and when to cherish what we have;
when to sit back and relax,
and which battles to choose.
I can tell you of the little things:
the relationships where your biggest fights
are where the salad cream belongs,
and the friends you haven't spoken to in years
but still call bests all the same.
I ask you to remember
that when the taxi costs too much,
the rain outside would make you more miserable.
Indulge the guilt of imported food,
just once, to celebrate your meaningless promotion,
and let yourself enjoy it
when your b
It is nothing to do with time, thinks Aristotle:
just like a geometric line
is not made up of a series of points,
time is not a series of nows.
But let me ask you, Aristotle, things that I cannot.
My now is not yours; my now is now
and your now belonged to a world
that does not exist.
Your descendants are unknown
and you would not know them if you could.
Your name is a myth lost in the past
and the streets you walked are long gone.
If time is indivisible, then you were divided
and fell like invisible dominoes
to make a history that led to me.
Some said that time was finite.
You argued with Zino in the long ago
and told him he
There is no heaven at the top of the sky
because the world cannot be that small.
A blue free-fall to end at a gate
insults the black free-float beyond.
And how do we dream
of brushing our fingertips over the helium burn
of the stars and the alien suns,
if heaven hems us in to our goldfish bowl below?
The leaves are shivering.
I do not know the type of tree, nor care,
but the breeze is barely strong enough
to ruffle my hair or disturb
the sun-warmth on my face,
or let me ignore the pop and fizz
of champagne freckles beneath my eyes.
The leaves are shivering, all the same,
and I wonder what they are afraid of.
This is charm: he waits faceless in the shadows
so that you only recognise him when he appears
and not before there is no defence against the faceless
until they have already breached the wall.
This is lust: he hides in unexpected places
and in the lines and smiles of unexpected faces
you may avoid the common markers, but lust himself has no face
and there is no defence against the faceless.
This is love: he lingers around the corners,
digging his fingers into the pretty things that clichés are made of
and if there is no defence against the faceless,
then the face of love will ruin you.
This is you: you don the
We will go when I am ready
and not before. We will go south
or west, or east or north,
or wherever my thumb stabs
on the map tucked in the front pocket
of the jacket you haven't worn for a while now.
And you will see the world as I do,
without your rainbows bouncing off
the walls of the waterfalls;
you will see the leaves in the gutters
and be sprayed by passing cars
when it hasn't rained for months.
You will leave your office shoes by the door
and wrinkle your nose at country air
fouler than the city.
I will laugh and turn the car
and bring you home.
But mark, when that day comes,
I will not stall the engine
or traipse mud
My mother paid for painting classes for me.
There were no artists in the family,
and maybe by coincidence, there were no saints.
I was only nine, and I don't know what she thought.
In later years, she'd despair: ask where she'd gone wrong,
and what hell was this she'd walked into.
Painting classes were my hell. Endless hours,
designing yellow oranges and blue hearts
for a Valentine's Day I never knew existed.
Ignorance is a bliss and a bore;
and then something to cry over, when torn away.
I stopped going when I was ten.
My mother shouted, my father didn't care,
and stayed silent behind his newspaper.
There are no artists in the
I descartes my body:
it's a verb now, because
all that exists is my mind,
and in my mind I can
rule the world, rule the language,
rule the milling peopled chaos
that doesn't exist at all.
Open the window, my self escapes,
drifting out of life and over
the steel-windowed city.
I am everywhere and everything
as the city exists here and only
in my mind; so if I descartes my body
then the only option left for me
is to be God.
So I am god, creating
lonely seas and skies in which
to lose my mind. And if
I could lose that mind,
then I do not exist at all.
I descartes myself
and the atheist God is born.
The sky has fishbones
skeletons swimming across the plain
and the city a coral reef,
dead and rusty now.
Perhaps the clouds are not bones
but cuttlefish; a thousand rows
of wispy bone and shell.
I have the attic room.
I sit in my wooden chair
and all there is
is an ocean above my head.
Which do I fear that the window seal
is not watertight, or
that if I open it, I will be the one
to slip into the sky and drown?
The first was a firework.
Exploding suns, tiny in their brilliance,
in the pit of a night sky.
The flash and bang, and if
you stood too close,
the earth rocked beneath your feet,
like God's vengeance had returned.
You could see your face:
gold and red and purple,
white and flash, and sometimes
an eyesore blue in the moment.
And a moment was all:
the suns would die again,
their brilliance snuffed out,
and the silence would sweep back in.
But the joy, the involuntary smile,
the step back only after the burn,
and the throwing of caution
to the wildest winds of all.
The second was a candle.
Lit carefully, and to burn forever.
I won't tell you of the greater things;
you'll find them out yourself.
We've all learned where love and hate are,
and when to cherish what we have;
when to sit back and relax,
and which battles to choose.
I can tell you of the little things:
the relationships where your biggest fights
are where the salad cream belongs,
and the friends you haven't spoken to in years
but still call bests all the same.
I ask you to remember
that when the taxi costs too much,
the rain outside would make you more miserable.
Indulge the guilt of imported food,
just once, to celebrate your meaningless promotion,
and let yourself enjoy it
when your b
It is nothing to do with time, thinks Aristotle:
just like a geometric line
is not made up of a series of points,
time is not a series of nows.
But let me ask you, Aristotle, things that I cannot.
My now is not yours; my now is now
and your now belonged to a world
that does not exist.
Your descendants are unknown
and you would not know them if you could.
Your name is a myth lost in the past
and the streets you walked are long gone.
If time is indivisible, then you were divided
and fell like invisible dominoes
to make a history that led to me.
Some said that time was finite.
You argued with Zino in the long ago
and told him he
There is no heaven at the top of the sky
because the world cannot be that small.
A blue free-fall to end at a gate
insults the black free-float beyond.
And how do we dream
of brushing our fingertips over the helium burn
of the stars and the alien suns,
if heaven hems us in to our goldfish bowl below?
The leaves are shivering.
I do not know the type of tree, nor care,
but the breeze is barely strong enough
to ruffle my hair or disturb
the sun-warmth on my face,
or let me ignore the pop and fizz
of champagne freckles beneath my eyes.
The leaves are shivering, all the same,
and I wonder what they are afraid of.
memories in the sky
05-24-10
they say
energy never dies
and everything's just chemical reactions
and waves of energy moving around
at different paces
and rhythms
even our emotions and thoughts
because they are a part of our mind/brain
just like everything else
and its all just energy
so when we leave
by tragedy or choice
we still leave the echo of our love
even if everything goes into the void
somewhere there will still be the reality
that at one time we occurred
and were in each others arms once
and never wanted to let go
and in that time/space
if any of that is left
we never will
This is just a linkspam, I'm afraid.
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A belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone! I hope it was better than mine (I caught the dreaded swine flu) and that the coming year is at least halfway decent for everyone.
I'm updating my FanStory account to get it up to speed with my other accounts so there'll be no new work appearing for a little while until I get that done.
Love,
Annie xxx
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My first anthology (of earlier works) is available as an ebook from Lulu at £3.43. That's ninety pages of poetry in PDF format.
The poetry revolves around love and growing up. It's slightly darker, as a whole, than my current works, and reflects the ability (or inability) to see ourselves for who we are.
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Love,
Annie xxx
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